Insomnia in Manila
She is in love.
She confirms this to herself as she lies awake at night, into those long silent hours that straddle the border between yesterday and tomorrow.
In the calm silence, she can hear her heartbeat and hopes, despairingly, that he can hear it as well.
Many times, she has told him how she feels. But she has said and done all she could, and now there is nothing left to do but wait for an answer. Any answer at all.
She knows that none is forthcoming.
***
You seek completeness or, at least, closure. Neither of which is possible unless he tells you how he really feels, one way or the other.
Take heart in the knowledge that, somehow, things will resolve themselves in due time.
Until then, I only wish that you would stop effacing yourself. If only you could see the beautiful warmth of your own soul, the wonder of your own person. Yes, you are beautiful and wonderful. Always remember that.
But it is not my place to light your path for you. Know, however, that I stand beside you wheresoever your heart may lead you.
You are not alone.
